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Noah Corey

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**Amid magic and monsters, a queer seventh-grader discovers a world where he can be himself but has to decide if he will fight for it…even if it means becoming the villain.

"A standout, genre-blurring work; give to fans of Lemony Snicket and Coraline, and to all readers who have ever rooted for the villains instead of the heroes." —School Library Journal, starred review**

Clementine has always felt like the villain of his story. Most of the time, he’s a socially anxious kid who knows it’s not “normal” for a boy to wear pink shoes to school. While he’s there, his teachers won’t call him by the right name (even though Clementine is a boy’s name, if a boy has it), his classmates tease him about his obsessive love for spiders (even though they’re beautiful), and he’s the only one who can see the floating faces that haunt the surrounding woods.

But all that changes when a boy named Beetle breaks through his bedroom window and warns him about monsters. Soon, Clementine is drawn into a world of magic and imagination. Every night in the woods, everything he and his new friends Beetle, Cricket, and Anise spend hours in a play-pretend world that seems to be seeping into reality. Clementine has never had a friend like Beetle—a boy who teaches him to howl at the moon, who dreams of being a hero and says the whole sky is beautiful while looking right at Clementine and not at the sky at all.

But Clementine wants to use the power fueling their adventures to make things better outside the forest—not later, when he’s grown up, but now. And when he discovers the source of the magic, Clementine has to decide: Does he become a hero with Beetle and protect a world that hates him? Or does he finally become the villain, ready to build a new world whatever the cost? In this joyful and uninhibited celebration of imagination, empathy and all things monstrous, debut author Noah Corey tells the story of a queer kid who is exactly and exquisitely himself. This book is a love letter to villains and heroes, and all the ways they make us brave.

"Part Peter Pan, part Alice’s Adventures in Wonderland, part Coraline, and at the same time wholly unique."
—Kirkus Reviews

Leseprobe
One

On the very first day of seventh grade, at the very beginning of his first class, Clem­en­tine tried to take his seat like a normal person.

He wasn’t sure if he pulled it off.

There was a whole variety of things Clem­en­tine didn’t want people to notice about him (like that he was fidgety) (and sort of sweaty) (and wearing pink sneakers). But he did want people to absolutely understand two things the minute they met him:

1. Clem­en­tine was a boy’s name, thank you very much, and

2. He would get taller eventually, because boys in his family did eventually get tall, he promised. He really was very normal, and it wasn’t his fault he’d skipped a grade and also several growth spurts.

To prove he was very normal, he wore his most regular red flannel, and his super-­not-­suspicious Loki T-shirt, and his only-­a-­bit-­ripped-­up jeans—­which mostly covered the pink sneakers. That morning, he’d let his mom put flowery hair spray in his chin-­length black hair. He’d even double-­checked that his socks matched.

He sat very still. He pretended he wasn’t sweaty. He ignored how frizzy and itchy and in-­his-eyes his bangs were, despite all the spray. Most importantly, he didn’t immediately start talking about spiders in intricate detail, which had been his mistake the year before.

(Normal kids talk about spiders a normal amount.) (Which apparently isn’t very much.)

Clem­en­tine’s plan went perfectly until the bell rang, and a shockingly tall teacher started calling roll.

The teacher was so tall because his legs were very, very long and spindly. He was wearing large square glasses and a thick gray cardigan over an even thicker blue sweater, and he looked very much like he was using his curly, blond-­with-­brown-­roots hair to hide two smallish horns.

He called out Clem­en­tine H. Hopeful.

Clem­en­tine raised his hand in a profoundly average way.

The teacher frowned. He called out Clem­en­tine H. Hopeful again.

Clem­en­tine raised his hand higher.

The teacher stared at him. Clem­en­tine stared back.

His teacher had reddish brown skin, striking dark ­freckles, and off-­yellow eyebrows. Only his frown was ugly.

Clem­en­tine shook his hand a little.

“I said Clem­en­tine.”

“That’s me,” said Clem­en­tine.

“Clem­en­tine’s a girl’s name,” the teacher sneered.

Clem­en­tine fiddled with his sleeve, disappointed that the (odd) (pretty) teacher was terrible. “Clem­en­tine’s a boy’s name if a boy has it. And I’m a boy. And I have it.”

The teacher squinted at him.

Clem­en­tine tried not to squint back, because that was rude, but he did stare at the teacher’s hair.

It just really, really looked like horns.

The teacher said, “I’m marking Clem­en­tine absent, and I’m going to need your real name.”

“Clem­en­tine is my real name. If you really don’t like it, you can call me Hopeful?”

The teacher marked something down on his clipboard and talked like Clem­en­tine was being punished for trying to trick him. “I’m going to call you Hopeful all semester. It might be a funny joke now, but I won’t let you change it.”

Clem­en­tine felt like he was going to vomit. Everyone was staring at him.

His words were a whisper. “You can call me ‘Hopeful’ all semester. It’s my last name . . .”

The teacher called out another name and simply checked the box when the other kid raised their hand.

“. . . But I’d rather you called me Clem­en­tine.”

Clem­en­tine’s day did not get better after homeroom.

He liked his classes, but he had never been exceptionally good at them. (The grade he skipped was kindergarten, and only because his mom mixed up which room she was supposed to walk him to.) He was great at some parts of school! He understood how to read, of course, and he was really excellent at writing—­he never forgot to dot his is with neat little circles. He kinda liked a few of his teachers, even though they weren’t always particularly trusting (or kind) toward him. And he sorta liked a few of his classmates, but he wasn’t good at talking to people (about most things besides spiders).

He just didn’t understand what other people meant when they said things. And nobody understood what he meant when he said things.

So, at lunch, when Ginger Jones saw him sitting alone and giggled, “What are you drawing?” he took her seriously and held it up to show her.

It was a spider—­specifically, a brown recluse spider, with a hat and a different roller skate on every foot. Clem­en­tine knew he wasn’t great at drawing, but he thought it was sweet Ginger was asking. And giving a spider roller skates was a good idea (if he could get a spider that big, or roller skates that small, obviously).

Ginger didn’t say anything else. She turned to her friends and laughed.

Clem­en­tine blinked, shocked and a little confused, then felt blood rush to his face. He dropped hi…