Now available in paperback, a groundbreaking, action-packed, and ultimately uplifting adventure that;intertwines elements of Jewish mythology;with an unflinching examination of the impacts of transphobia “Rare and beautiful--a novel that combines wondrous fantasy, searing real-world relevance, and a frank empathetic understanding of the adolescent experience...The way Lukoff combines these elements in a page-turning adventure is nothing short of magic!” --Rick Riordan, author of Percy Jackson and the Olympians Covid lockdown is over, but A’s world feels smaller than ever. Coming out as trans didn’t exactly go well, and most days, he barely leaves his bedroom, let alone the house. But the low point of A’s life isn’t online school, missing his bar mitzvah, or the fact that his parents monitor his phone like hawks--it’s the weekly Save Our Sons and Daughters meetings his parents all but drag him to.; At SOSAD, A and his friends Sal and Yarrow sit by while their parents deadname them and wring their hands over a nonexistent “transgender craze.” After all, sitting in suffocating silence has to be better than getting sent away for “advanced treatment,” never to be heard from again.;; When Yarrow vanishes after a particularly confrontational meeting, A discovers that SOSAD doesn’t just But how is one trans kid who hasn’t even chosen a name supposed to save his friend, let alone the world? And is a world that seems hellbent on rejecting him even worth saving at all?

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Kyle Lukoff is the author of many books for young readers. His debut middle-grade novel, Too Bright to See, received a Newbery Honor, the Stonewall award, and was a National Book Award finalist. His picture book When Aidan Became a Brother also won the Stonewall. He has forthcoming books about mermaids, babies, apologies, and lots of other topics. While becoming a writer he worked as a bookseller for ten years, and then nine more years as a school librarian.

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A NATIONAL BOOK AWARD FINALIST • A groundbreaking, action-packed, and ultimately uplifting adventure that intertwines elements of Jewish mythology with an unflinching examination of the impacts of transphobia, from Newbery Honor winner Kyle Lukoff.

“Rare and beautiful—a novel that combines wondrous fantasy, searing real-world relevance, and a frank empathetic understanding of the adolescent experience.”—Rick Riordan, author of Percy Jackson and the Olympians

★ “A stunning powerhouse of fantasy and real-world issues.”—Booklist, starred review

Lockdown is over, but A’s world feels smaller than ever. Coming out as trans didn’t exactly go well, and most days, he still barely leaves his bedroom, let alone the house. But the low point of A’s life isn’t online school, missing his bar mitzvah, or the fact that his parents monitor his phone like hawks—it’s the weekly Save Our Sons and Daughters meetings his parents all but drag him to.

At SOSAD, A and his friends Sal and Yarrow sit by while their parents deadname them and wring their hands over a nonexistent “transgender craze.” After all, sitting in suffocating silence has to be better than getting sent away for “advanced treatment,” never to be heard from again.

When Yarrow vanishes after a particularly confrontational meeting, A discovers that SOSAD doesn’t just feel soul-sucking…it’s run by an actual demon who feeds off the pain and misery of kids like him. And it’s not just SOSAD—the entire world is beset by demons dining on what seems like an endless buffet of pain and bigotry.

But how is one trans kid who hasn’t even chosen a name supposed to save his friend, let alone the world? And is a world that seems hellbent on rejecting him even worth saving at all?

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Chapter 1
2022 (kind of)

“A_! It’s time to go! Are your shoes on?” Mom’s voice drilled through my closed bedroom door.

Aglets. That’s what they're called. Those little plasticky things at the ends of shoelaces. That would be a fun name, too. Aglet Izenson. I clicked out of the Wikipedia rabbit hole that led me to “shoelaces” and closed my laptop.

I grabbed the laces of my left sneaker. They dangled from my fingers like limp black worms. Come on, I urged myself, but my hands remained rebelliously still.

“Almost ready!” I called back.

I didn’t forget how to tie my shoes, I swear. Shoe-tying was a skill I mastered in first grade, the loops and knots and everything. But once my shoes were tied, I’d have to leave.

“Well, hurry up!”

It’s not like I loved my bedroom, this featureless box painted a babyish shade of lilac. All I had in here were books; battered old paperbacks from my mom’s youth, the ones she loved enough to keep and pass on to me, the ones I had a complicated relationship with. No posters on the walls, no flags or pictures torn out of magazines, just a small bump in the plaster above my desk shaped like a teddy bear, and a cobweb hanging in the corner that I hadn’t knocked down yet. I was saving that task for a day when I got really bored.

After spending approximately twenty-one percent of my life in this room except for going to the bathroom, shuffling downstairs for bowls of cereal, and long meanders around our backyard—thanks, COVID—you’d think I’d be thrilled for any excuse to leave. I mean, even wandering around the grocery store without a mask on still felt like a risky, thrilling adventure. But tying my shoes would take me one step closer to an intolerable fate.

“A____, we’re going to be late! Let’s get a move on!” That was my dad.

“One more minute,” I yelled.

It wasn’t too late to fake-cough and tell them that I couldn’t smell anything. There was still the lingering fear of a new variant, one that wouldn’t register on a rapid test. Mom would freak out about a breakthrough infection, I’d go stir-crazy sitting in my room for ten days, but I’d get to miss two SOSAD meetings.

That felt like a nuclear option, though. One to save for if I really needed to get out of something.

Mom rapped her knuckles on my bedroom door, then poked her head in without waiting for my response.

“You’re wearing that?” she asked. Well, “ask” isn’t quite the right word. It’s more like she was telling me I wouldn’t be wearing that if she had anything to say about it.

“I am,” I said anyway. Because it was true, I was wearing that, “that” being plain black sneakers, my only pair of baggy jeans with decent pockets, and a red polo shirt I bought at a neighbor’s yard sale for a quarter. I wished I still had the binder I got, from this collective that shipped donated ones all over the world in discreet packaging. But when my mom found it, she whisked it away without a word, and I never saw it again. I figured she cut it into pieces or buried it in the trash or ritualistically burned it in the backyard. Now I squeezed myself into too-tight sports bras. If you didn’t look too closely I could pass as a boy with, uh, unusually well-developed pectoral muscles.

“Why don’t you at least change your shirt, sweetheart?” she asked, her voice like that stuff they have to advertise as “breakfast syrup” because there’s not a drop of true maple in it. Too sweet, and bad for you. “I bought you those nice new blouses, I’m sure everyone at the meeting would love …