Autorentext

I grew up in a very small town and working class family where every penny counted and money was tight. Fear has been within me since a small child and it grew and grew within me as I got older and even into adulthood. I knew the taste of fear and the smell of fear on an every day basis. As soon as I opened my eyes in the morning fear was there and it was there as I went to bed at night I was shrouded in fear. I was petrified of planet earth and the people in it. I had nothing in common with planet earth and I became Isolated. I was a complete loner and I had absolutely nobody I could talk to or relate to about my problems. I was walking anxiety and petrified of every day. I knew I needed help when on more than one occasion I would leave my house only to find that my body would freeze up and my legs turning to jelly and I would become a walking anxiety attack. I spent many years in and out of therapy and through therapy I got to understand myself and my fear's. It was all down to painfully low confidence, self esteem and self worth and my fears of my sexuality. I thought nothing of myself so why should anybody else and I was psychologically bullied and laughed at even into my adult life. I did not live like other people and I was painfully shy and very reserved and Inside myself I was screaming for help. I can only thank god for my creative abilities which I was born with to tell and share unusual stories. They say write what you know and put yourself into your characters which I have done and it has helped me to the point of keeping me sane and maybe even alive. Fear is a huge part of my characters and I have put them in fearful situations simply because I fully understand what driven fear can do to the human mind and body over many years.

Klappentext

Julian Black took you to a world of closetry with his fascinating little debut novel "A Secret Gay Passion"! He then took you to another time and another place with his second fascinating book, "Where Does Homosexuality Come From? Me and My Ghost." In this his third book, "Story of a Young American Gay Porn Star," he takes you into the world of the gay porn industry from the point of view of a young American man named Cory. See his passion and overwhelming desire to be part of this tough and competitive industry, and his braveness to tell his family and friends about his determination to enter the world of gay porn-but entering it with no confidence in himself or self-esteem. Find out how he deals with this and gets through this in an industry he is driven to be a part of. This is a story about a young man who is very brave and ambitious and wants to make his way to the top in the gay porn industry.