Vorwort

• E-galley distribution.

• Author available for interviews and features.

• Review coverage, social media.

• Social media handles: @ArielAnderssen (X), Ariel'sTwilightYears (YouTube).

Autorentext

Ariel Anderssen is a BDSM model with a lifetime's interest in submission and masochism. The daughter of a nuclear physicist, Ariel was brought up as Jehovah's Witness by her devoutly religious mother, and to a lesser extent by her father, who was busy with the Chernobyl nuclear reactor in the wake of the 1986 disaster. She has a YouTube channel about 'How to be a Really, Really, Really Old Model', and tweets daily about her kinky life. She lives in Wales with her husband. Her hobbies include dressmaking and collecting antique swords. Playing to Lose is her first book.

Klappentext

In this bold and intimate memoir Ariel Anderssen charts her journey from a strict religious upbringing as a Jehovah’s Witness to her current position as one of the most widely recognised BDSM performers in the world. 

Her route between the two includes a period as a wretchedly miserable, teenage political activist, a phase touring with a Christian theatre group, and accidentally discovering a talent for posing for art nude photography. This surprising and unconventional career path led her to a life-altering introduction to BDSM-themed erotic artwork and a whole world she never imagined existing.

This is a book about BDSM, and about sexuality, but most of all it is about one woman’s struggle for self-acceptance and the rewards that come from confronting who you are with honesty and compassion.

TRIGGER WARNING: this book contains descriptions of sexual violence that some readers may find upsetting

Inhalt

Prologue - 3

Part One: An Embryonic Deviant

1 Dastardly Captain Hook and My Distressingly Non-Kinky Family - 7

2 An Excess of Piety and A World of Our Own - 15

3 The Sexy School Library - 29

4 Early Episodes of Exhibitionism - 37

5 A Great Divide - 43

6 A Teenage Sexual Deviant - 54

7 A School Full of Drama - 70

8 Playing at Slavery - 84

9 The Christian Tour of Hell - 102

Part Two: A Sexual Caterpillar

10 Total Poverty and a Lack of Chastity - 113

11 A Magical Career from the Internet - 126

12 A Professional Model - 134

13 The Kinky World Reveals Itself - 139

14 Diving into BDSM 15615 Biblically Unsuitable - 164

16 The English Disease - 176

17 Spanking Finds Me - 186

18 Becoming Amelia Jane - 198

19 The Underside - 209

20 The Arrival of a Real Dominant Hero - 220

21 Dom/Sub - 233

Part Three: A Massive Masochistic Moth

22 Dominant Boyfriend - 247

23 A Sadist in the Family - 265

24 Alistair and the Military Caning - 273

25 Drago and the Sex-Talk Masterclass - 285

26 Eric Cain, Rhymes with Pain - 298

27 Captain Anal Hook - 318

28 Danger Money - 326

29 Fantasies, Fans and Friendship - 334

30 Covid and Kink - 347

31 The Feminists, the Famous and the Publishing Giant - 359

32 Pornotopia - 367 

Epilogue - 376

Acknowledgements - 381 

A Note on the Author - 385 

Supporters - 387